“I TOLD HER THAT I LOVED HER, WAS NOT SURE IF SHE HEARD. THE ROOF WAS PRETTY WINDY AND SHE DIDN’T SAY A WORD. PARTY DYING DOWNSTAIRS, HAD NOTHING LEFT TO DO. JUST ME, HER AND THE MOON.”
I never thought that I would become the type of person that would say....a situation changed me.
And yet I have become just that. You know, I always thought that I was stronger than that. I have overcome so much in my life, to have let someone completely ruin my life. Yes, it was my fault too. I am an adult and I have to own up to my mistakes. To me, it is as if I have completely let myself down and I'm not sure that I will ever feel different.
I let someone manipulate me into thinking I'm crazy, I'm not good enough, not matter how hard I try to find the old me, I'm not spending the time to get to know the new me. And that is something so beautiful but yet so sad. Sad to say goodbye to someone you've known your whole life.
I have always loved who I was.... head strong, independent, not afraid of any obstacle, and here I am doubting if I'm a good person or if i deserve the man who been there for me when I needed someone the most. Because I love him. I love him in a way I have never experienced before. I love him so much I want to keep that part of my life a secret. I dont want anyone to fuck it up. I want him forever.
But I don't want to hurt him. I don't want my dying to affect his heart and who he is as a person. I see how when he looks at me...his eyes start melting. And how he adores me. I love him for his beautiful heart and understanding that I am emotionally unstable most of the time. And he still chooses to love me. That's is something that makes me happy but hurts my heart.
“I think part of the reason why we hold so tight is because we fear something so great won’t happen twice”
— unknown (via hatin)
yourfavwolf
defeqt
“I TOLD HER THAT I LOVED HER, WAS NOT SURE IF SHE HEARD. THE ROOF WAS PRETTY WINDY AND SHE DIDN’T SAY A WORD. PARTY DYING DOWNSTAIRS, HAD NOTHING LEFT TO DO. JUST ME, HER AND THE MOON.”
